The Road Isn’t Easy, But It’s Worth It.

I’ve been having a difficult time writing lately.  I began this blog to share my struggles with infertility and repeated miscarriages in hopes of helping others and letting other women know they aren’t alone.  It was so therapeutic for me and I really felt like God led every post I shared with you all.  New…

Patience During Your Season of Waiting

When I found out I was pregnant again, I bought a pregnancy devotional called Waiting in Wonder by Catherine Claire Larson. I have loved it from the first day I started reading it. It gives a little devotional then has two questions or prompts for you to write in, which I think will be awesome…

Be Still

Tomorrow I have my 4D Anatomy scan and because I’m me, I’m nervous. When you’ve suffered three miscarriages, every appt, I’m fearing those dreadful words. “There’s no heartbeat.” I am 18 weeks and have had nothing but good reports thus far.  So I know the devil is trying to put fear in my mind to…

Shield of Faith

Today seems like one of those days where I just want to fall apart.  I want to go in a room, alone, and just cry.  Just when everything seems to be going right something goes wrong. For a few weeks we’ve been on a high.  The high of finally getting through the first trimester.  Finally…

Let Go and Let God

Can you imagine someone who has been imprisoned or held captive for many years, how they must feel when they are finally let go?  How it must feel to have the sun on their face, ankles and hands free of bondage?  After so many years of being restrained, confined, and anxious to finally feeling that…

The Bigger Your Storm, the Brighter Your Rainbow.

As I sit here getting closer and closer to week 14, 15, 16 etc.  I am beyond joyful and thankful for so many things.  Obviously, number one being this pregnancy and that I’ve made it past my last 3 miscarriage weeks.  Eight, Ten, and Twelve.  But, I am also thankful for the journey I took…

His Perfect Timing

My precious daughter.  She is about to turn four in a couple of months and I can’t believe how much she’s grown.  How much she’s learned.  How different our lives are because of this amazing little creature God blessed me with.  She has a kind and caring heart.  She’s a much better child than I…

Ready for Battle

Week 10.  Test week.  Since in the “baby making world” I’m considered old (cringe) for having a baby, there are a multitude of test and procedures that have to be done that didn’t when I had N almost four years ago.  I’m only 36.  But, having a baby after 35 is considered high risk.  And…

A Week at a Time

Yesterday, I hit the 9 week mark.  Each day, and especially week, that goes by I get more and more excited.  When you’ve had three miscarriages, each one tends to reply in your mind on a daily basis and it’s hard to stop and be joyful and excited about a pregnancy that may not last. …

Thy Will Be Done

Morning sickness.  Week 6 hit me like a ton of bricks. In all 5 of my pregnancies, the sickness has been the worst this go round.  But, the past few days, it’s really lightened up a bit.  I’ve felt more like myself than I have in a couple weeks and I’ve been able to walk…