Arkansas weather is pretty crazy, unpredictable, and quite erratic at times. Monday it was cold and damp with an high of 38 degrees. Yesterday it was gorgeous and sunny reaching a lovely 70 degrees. My kind of weather for sure. With the drastic change in temperature from day to day we see a lot of thunderstorms and tornadoes. I woke up about 2:00 am today with what sounded like a dang freight train! Luckily, it was just a thunderstorm with high winds and not a tornado.
As I laid there, listening to the thunder and watching my room light up every few seconds from the lightening, I couldn’t help thinking about the storms we go through in life.
How everything can be gorgeous and sunny one minute then all of a sudden the clouds roll in, the rain comes down, and you feel as if you’re drowning. You can’t come up for air, and when you do the rain continues to beat down on you. My struggle to stay pregnant has turned into a struggle to get pregnant. When I’m having a day of struggle and wondering why we are having such a difficult time, I feel like I’m drowning. That just as I get my head above water and think positively, the current pulls me back down. When this happens I try to spend more time in my bible, more time praying and asking God to reach down, grab my hand and pull me out. And because he is a God who listens and hears my prayers, he always does.
Just because I am a Christian doesn’t mean I’m not going to have bad days. Just because I’m a Christian doesn’t mean my life will be perfect. It means that during those bad days I have someone to turn to. To help me and give me peace. To rescue me from my doubt and fear of never having another child. It means that when I go through deep waters, he will always be with me.