Three in the morning.

Three in the morning. I’ve barely fallen back asleep when I hear you start to stir on the baby monitor. Moving around at first. Then flopping onto your belly, then crying. I get up, for the 3rd time since I’ve put you down. I’m tired, delirious, and just feel down right exhausted. I walk across…

We may feel unworthy, but we’re wanted.

I recently went to a concert. Hillsong, Elevation Worship, and Casting Crowns. To be in a huge arena, with thousands of people, all worshiping our creator was such a powerful experience. If you’ve never felt the presence of the Lord, GO TO A CHRISTIAN CONCERT! There was no doubt in my mind that the Lord…

Worth the Wait

A year ago I started this blog to share my story about our struggle to get and stay pregnant. One year ago. And today I’m writing this with a 7 week old healthy baby girl in my lap. This year has been the most rewarding ever. I honestly wasn’t sure if I would ever be…

The Ugly Truth

On my last blog, I shared the fact that I haven’t been writing much about this pregnancy because, well, it basically sucks.  But, many of you reached out to me and told me to share away and not feel the guilt I was feeling for complaining about something I am eternally grateful for.  So here…

The Road Isn’t Easy, But It’s Worth It.

I’ve been having a difficult time writing lately.  I began this blog to share my struggles with infertility and repeated miscarriages in hopes of helping others and letting other women know they aren’t alone.  It was so therapeutic for me and I really felt like God led every post I shared with you all.  New…

Patience During Your Season of Waiting

When I found out I was pregnant again, I bought a pregnancy devotional called Waiting in Wonder by Catherine Claire Larson. I have loved it from the first day I started reading it. It gives a little devotional then has two questions or prompts for you to write in, which I think will be awesome…

Be Still

Tomorrow I have my 4D Anatomy scan and because I’m me, I’m nervous. When you’ve suffered three miscarriages, every appt, I’m fearing those dreadful words. “There’s no heartbeat.” I am 18 weeks and have had nothing but good reports thus far.  So I know the devil is trying to put fear in my mind to…

Shield of Faith

Today seems like one of those days where I just want to fall apart.  I want to go in a room, alone, and just cry.  Just when everything seems to be going right something goes wrong. For a few weeks we’ve been on a high.  The high of finally getting through the first trimester.  Finally…

Let Go and Let God

Can you imagine someone who has been imprisoned or held captive for many years, how they must feel when they are finally let go?  How it must feel to have the sun on their face, ankles and hands free of bondage?  After so many years of being restrained, confined, and anxious to finally feeling that…