Be Still

Tomorrow I have my 4D Anatomy scan and because I’m me, I’m nervous. When you’ve suffered three miscarriages, every appt, I’m fearing those dreadful words. “There’s no heartbeat.” I am 18 weeks and have had nothing but good reports thus far.  So I know the devil is trying to put fear in my mind to…

Let Go and Let God

Can you imagine someone who has been imprisoned or held captive for many years, how they must feel when they are finally let go?  How it must feel to have the sun on their face, ankles and hands free of bondage?  After so many years of being restrained, confined, and anxious to finally feeling that…

His Perfect Timing

My precious daughter.  She is about to turn four in a couple of months and I can’t believe how much she’s grown.  How much she’s learned.  How different our lives are because of this amazing little creature God blessed me with.  She has a kind and caring heart.  She’s a much better child than I…

Ready for Battle

Week 10.  Test week.  Since in the “baby making world” I’m considered old (cringe) for having a baby, there are a multitude of test and procedures that have to be done that didn’t when I had N almost four years ago.  I’m only 36.  But, having a baby after 35 is considered high risk.  And…

A Week at a Time

Yesterday, I hit the 9 week mark.  Each day, and especially week, that goes by I get more and more excited.  When you’ve had three miscarriages, each one tends to reply in your mind on a daily basis and it’s hard to stop and be joyful and excited about a pregnancy that may not last. …

Thy Will Be Done

Morning sickness.  Week 6 hit me like a ton of bricks. In all 5 of my pregnancies, the sickness has been the worst this go round.  But, the past few days, it’s really lightened up a bit.  I’ve felt more like myself than I have in a couple weeks and I’ve been able to walk…

Let Your Light Shine

I am not a fan of the month of January.  My husband can’t comprehend because it’s my birthday month so he thinks I should love and celebrate it the entire 31 days.  No way.  It’s cold, dreary, and LONG!  I’m the kind of person that NEEDS the sunlight.  I get down and depressed when we…

There is No Room for Your Past in Your Future

  If you’ve read my last blog post Trust then you know I am finally on a new journey of hope with this rainbow baby.  Of course I’m praying for a healthy baby but most of all I’m praying to get through these first 12 weeks.  My first miscarriage I made it to 8 weeks,  second…

Trust

I’ve been seeing a lot of people on my Instagram (@iamlivinginfreedom) talk about their “word” for 2019.  I had never done this before so I thought I’d give it a go.  But, what word would I choose?  And how do I go about choosing it?  Is everyone choosing their word as something they want to…

Let God be the Judge

We live in a world that judges people on a constant basis.  People are judged by their appearance, their political party, their sexual orientation, the color of their skin.  Whether or not they vaccinate their children or support a brand because of their representative choice.  One of the main reasons I no longer get on…