His Perfect Timing

My precious daughter.  She is about to turn four in a couple of months and I can’t believe how much she’s grown.  How much she’s learned.  How different our lives are because of this amazing little creature God blessed me with.  She has a kind and caring heart.  She’s a much better child than I…

Ready for Battle

Week 10.  Test week.  Since in the “baby making world” I’m considered old (cringe) for having a baby, there are a multitude of test and procedures that have to be done that didn’t when I had N almost four years ago.  I’m only 36.  But, having a baby after 35 is considered high risk.  And…

A Week at a Time

Yesterday, I hit the 9 week mark.  Each day, and especially week, that goes by I get more and more excited.  When you’ve had three miscarriages, each one tends to reply in your mind on a daily basis and it’s hard to stop and be joyful and excited about a pregnancy that may not last. …

Thy Will Be Done

Morning sickness.  Week 6 hit me like a ton of bricks. In all 5 of my pregnancies, the sickness has been the worst this go round.  But, the past few days, it’s really lightened up a bit.  I’ve felt more like myself than I have in a couple weeks and I’ve been able to walk…

Let Your Light Shine

I am not a fan of the month of January.  My husband can’t comprehend because it’s my birthday month so he thinks I should love and celebrate it the entire 31 days.  No way.  It’s cold, dreary, and LONG!  I’m the kind of person that NEEDS the sunlight.  I get down and depressed when we…

There is No Room for Your Past in Your Future

  If you’ve read my last blog post Trust then you know I am finally on a new journey of hope with this rainbow baby.  Of course I’m praying for a healthy baby but most of all I’m praying to get through these first 12 weeks.  My first miscarriage I made it to 8 weeks,  second…

Trust

I’ve been seeing a lot of people on my Instagram (@iamlivinginfreedom) talk about their “word” for 2019.  I had never done this before so I thought I’d give it a go.  But, what word would I choose?  And how do I go about choosing it?  Is everyone choosing their word as something they want to…

Let God be the Judge

We live in a world that judges people on a constant basis.  People are judged by their appearance, their political party, their sexual orientation, the color of their skin.  Whether or not they vaccinate their children or support a brand because of their representative choice.  One of the main reasons I no longer get on…

Year of Freedom

Coming into 2018 I was pregnant with what was eventually my 3rd miscarriage.  What a way to start off the new year right?  But, I have to say that even though I began the year with another failed pregnancy, I was still hopeful. 2018 was my year for Freedom. Freedom from fears and anxieties that…