Today seems like one of those days where I just want to fall apart. I want to go in a room, alone, and just cry. Just when everything seems to be going right something goes wrong. For a few weeks we’ve been on a high. The high of finally getting through the first trimester. Finally…
Let Go and Let God
Can you imagine someone who has been imprisoned or held captive for many years, how they must feel when they are finally let go? How it must feel to have the sun on their face, ankles and hands free of bondage? After so many years of being restrained, confined, and anxious to finally feeling that…
The Bigger Your Storm, the Brighter Your Rainbow.
As I sit here getting closer and closer to week 14, 15, 16 etc. I am beyond joyful and thankful for so many things. Obviously, number one being this pregnancy and that I’ve made it past my last 3 miscarriage weeks. Eight, Ten, and Twelve. But, I am also thankful for the journey I took…
His Perfect Timing
My precious daughter. She is about to turn four in a couple of months and I can’t believe how much she’s grown. How much she’s learned. How different our lives are because of this amazing little creature God blessed me with. She has a kind and caring heart. She’s a much better child than I…
Ready for Battle
Week 10. Test week. Since in the “baby making world” I’m considered old (cringe) for having a baby, there are a multitude of test and procedures that have to be done that didn’t when I had N almost four years ago. I’m only 36. But, having a baby after 35 is considered high risk. And…
A Week at a Time
Yesterday, I hit the 9 week mark. Each day, and especially week, that goes by I get more and more excited. When you’ve had three miscarriages, each one tends to reply in your mind on a daily basis and it’s hard to stop and be joyful and excited about a pregnancy that may not last. …
Thy Will Be Done
Morning sickness. Week 6 hit me like a ton of bricks. In all 5 of my pregnancies, the sickness has been the worst this go round. But, the past few days, it’s really lightened up a bit. I’ve felt more like myself than I have in a couple weeks and I’ve been able to walk…
Let Your Light Shine
I am not a fan of the month of January. My husband can’t comprehend because it’s my birthday month so he thinks I should love and celebrate it the entire 31 days. No way. It’s cold, dreary, and LONG! I’m the kind of person that NEEDS the sunlight. I get down and depressed when we…
How Did Mary Manage Without Ginger Ale????
As week 6 rolls around the nausea has definitely reared it’s ugly head. As with every other pregnancy (4) of mine I knew it was coming with a vengeance. I’m a full time working mother, who’s husband is gone most evenings working since he is in school during the day. When dealing with patients all…
There is No Room for Your Past in Your Future
If you’ve read my last blog post Trust then you know I am finally on a new journey of hope with this rainbow baby. Of course I’m praying for a healthy baby but most of all I’m praying to get through these first 12 weeks. My first miscarriage I made it to 8 weeks, second…
I am living in freedom 