Shield of Faith

Today seems like one of those days where I just want to fall apart.  I want to go in a room, alone, and just cry.  Just when everything seems to be going right something goes wrong. For a few weeks we’ve been on a high.  The high of finally getting through the first trimester.  Finally…

Ready for Battle

Week 10.  Test week.  Since in the “baby making world” I’m considered old (cringe) for having a baby, there are a multitude of test and procedures that have to be done that didn’t when I had N almost four years ago.  I’m only 36.  But, having a baby after 35 is considered high risk.  And…

Let Your Light Shine

I am not a fan of the month of January.  My husband can’t comprehend because it’s my birthday month so he thinks I should love and celebrate it the entire 31 days.  No way.  It’s cold, dreary, and LONG!  I’m the kind of person that NEEDS the sunlight.  I get down and depressed when we…

How Did Mary Manage Without Ginger Ale????

As week 6 rolls around the nausea has definitely reared it’s ugly head.  As with every other pregnancy (4) of mine I knew it was coming with a vengeance.  I’m a full time working mother, who’s husband is gone most evenings working since he is in school during the day.  When dealing with patients all…

There is No Room for Your Past in Your Future

  If you’ve read my last blog post Trust then you know I am finally on a new journey of hope with this rainbow baby.  Of course I’m praying for a healthy baby but most of all I’m praying to get through these first 12 weeks.  My first miscarriage I made it to 8 weeks,  second…

Trust

I’ve been seeing a lot of people on my Instagram (@iamlivinginfreedom) talk about their “word” for 2019.  I had never done this before so I thought I’d give it a go.  But, what word would I choose?  And how do I go about choosing it?  Is everyone choosing their word as something they want to…

Let God be the Judge

We live in a world that judges people on a constant basis.  People are judged by their appearance, their political party, their sexual orientation, the color of their skin.  Whether or not they vaccinate their children or support a brand because of their representative choice.  One of the main reasons I no longer get on…

Year of Freedom

Coming into 2018 I was pregnant with what was eventually my 3rd miscarriage.  What a way to start off the new year right?  But, I have to say that even though I began the year with another failed pregnancy, I was still hopeful. 2018 was my year for Freedom. Freedom from fears and anxieties that…

Stars Can Not Shine Without Darkness

A year ago today, I was pregnant with what would ultimately be my third miscarriage. I was scared, sad, and felt so alone.  “How could this be happening to me again”, I remember thinking.  I look back over this past year and can see the growth of the person God knew I could be.  Through…

What if God said he was too busy?

It’s pretty crazy how time flies by as we get older.  As a child the days, weeks, months leading up to Christmas seemed like forever.  Oh to go back to those days when time stood still.  Now, time can’t slow down fast enough.  Each day and week flies by with the blink of an eye. …