Ready for Battle

Week 10.  Test week.  Since in the “baby making world” I’m considered old (cringe) for having a baby, there are a multitude of test and procedures that have to be done that didn’t when I had N almost four years ago.  I’m only 36.  But, having a baby after 35 is considered high risk.  And…

A Week at a Time

Yesterday, I hit the 9 week mark.  Each day, and especially week, that goes by I get more and more excited.  When you’ve had three miscarriages, each one tends to reply in your mind on a daily basis and it’s hard to stop and be joyful and excited about a pregnancy that may not last. …

Thy Will Be Done

Morning sickness.  Week 6 hit me like a ton of bricks. In all 5 of my pregnancies, the sickness has been the worst this go round.  But, the past few days, it’s really lightened up a bit.  I’ve felt more like myself than I have in a couple weeks and I’ve been able to walk…

How Did Mary Manage Without Ginger Ale????

As week 6 rolls around the nausea has definitely reared it’s ugly head.  As with every other pregnancy (4) of mine I knew it was coming with a vengeance.  I’m a full time working mother, who’s husband is gone most evenings working since he is in school during the day.  When dealing with patients all…

There is No Room for Your Past in Your Future

  If you’ve read my last blog post Trust then you know I am finally on a new journey of hope with this rainbow baby.  Of course I’m praying for a healthy baby but most of all I’m praying to get through these first 12 weeks.  My first miscarriage I made it to 8 weeks,  second…

Year of Freedom

Coming into 2018 I was pregnant with what was eventually my 3rd miscarriage.  What a way to start off the new year right?  But, I have to say that even though I began the year with another failed pregnancy, I was still hopeful. 2018 was my year for Freedom. Freedom from fears and anxieties that…

One of those days

It’s hard to want to write or basically do anything when you’re waking up with a headache every single day. Hormones….I hate you. Surge of estrogen they call it, yet it feels like a surge of little jack hammers going to town on my head. It’s hard to focus, work, be in a room with…

Getting through the storm

Arkansas weather is pretty crazy, unpredictable, and quite erratic at times. Monday it was cold and damp with an high of 38 degrees. Yesterday it was gorgeous and sunny reaching a lovely 70 degrees. My kind of weather for sure. With the drastic change in temperature from day to day we see a lot of…

Turn your “What if” to “Even if”

Anxiety disorders are the most common mental disorder in the United States. According to the Anxiety and Depression Association of America (ADAA), 40 million Americans over the age of 18 are affected by anxiety — roughly 18 percent of the nation’s population. Of those 40 million people, 15 million suffering from social anxiety disorder, 14.8…