Coming into 2018 I was pregnant with what would eventually be my 3rd miscarriage. What a way to start off the new year right? But, I have to say that even though I began the year with another failed pregnancy, I was still hopeful. 2018 was my year for Freedom. Freedom from fears and anxieties…
Tag: miscarriage
Stars Can Not Shine Without Darkness
A year ago today, I was pregnant with what would ultimately be my third miscarriage. I was scared, sad, and felt so alone. “How could this be happening to me again”, I remember thinking. I look back over this past year and can see the growth of the person God knew I could be. Through…
What if God said he was too busy?
It’s pretty crazy how time flies by as we get older. As a child the days, weeks, months leading up to Christmas seemed like forever. Oh to go back to those days when time stood still. Now, time can’t slow down fast enough. Each day and week flies by with the blink of an eye. …
When God Shows Up
Yesterday was a bad day for me. I was dealing with a horrible hormonal headache from annolvuatory bleeding. I was feeling so low and hopeless. Feeling that another child would probably not be in my future. What if something happened during my D&C that has caused an eternal issue? What if I’m not ovulating and…
One of those days
It’s hard to want to write or basically do anything when you’re waking up with a headache every single day. Hormones….I hate you. Surge of estrogen they call it, yet it feels like a surge of little jack hammers going to town on my head. It’s hard to focus, work, be in a room with…
Getting through the storm
Arkansas weather is pretty crazy, unpredictable, and quite erratic at times. Monday it was cold and damp with an high of 38 degrees. Yesterday it was gorgeous and sunny reaching a lovely 70 degrees. My kind of weather for sure. With the drastic change in temperature from day to day we see a lot of…
Turn your “What if” to “Even if”
Anxiety disorders are the most common mental disorder in the United States. According to the Anxiety and Depression Association of America (ADAA), 40 million Americans over the age of 18 are affected by anxiety — roughly 18 percent of the nation’s population. Of those 40 million people, 15 million suffering from social anxiety disorder, 14.8…
Patience is a virtue…one I seem to lack
Every time I read it, the voice behind it is the lady from Steel Magnolias wearing the tight girdle that harps at Dolly Parton for eating cake. “Calories, Calories!” “Patience is a virtue, patience is a virtue.” CRINGE!! I have always been fast-paced. I’m constantly going, going, going and never stopping. I’m not a…
A thief in the night
During my wait to get pregnant again and to have another precious baby, my faith in God has gotten stronger with each day, with each failed test, and with each month that starts over. I know that God has a plan for me. I know that my wait is teaching me something. I’m doing my…
The Wait
Today is the day. The day I get to take a pregnancy test. You go to bed the night before, excited, hopeful. But before I even get out of bed, I know. I’m hurting. Cramping. I get up to go the bathroom and it’s confirmed. We’re starting over. Another month. Another 30 days. More stressful…
I am living in freedom 