Ready for Battle

Week 10.  Test week.  Since in the “baby making world” I’m considered old (cringe) for having a baby, there are a multitude of test and procedures that have to be done that didn’t when I had N almost four years ago.  I’m only 36.  But, having a baby after 35 is considered high risk.  And…

Thy Will Be Done

Morning sickness.  Week 6 hit me like a ton of bricks. In all 5 of my pregnancies, the sickness has been the worst this go round.  But, the past few days, it’s really lightened up a bit.  I’ve felt more like myself than I have in a couple weeks and I’ve been able to walk…

Trust

I’ve been seeing a lot of people on my Instagram (@iamlivinginfreedom) talk about their “word” for 2019.  I had never done this before so I thought I’d give it a go.  But, what word would I choose?  And how do I go about choosing it?  Is everyone choosing their word as something they want to…

When God Shows Up

Yesterday was a bad day for me. I was dealing with a horrible hormonal headache from annolvuatory bleeding. I was feeling so low and hopeless. Feeling that another child would probably not be in my future. What if something happened during my D&C that has caused an eternal issue? What if I’m not ovulating and…

Getting through the storm

Arkansas weather is pretty crazy, unpredictable, and quite erratic at times. Monday it was cold and damp with an high of 38 degrees. Yesterday it was gorgeous and sunny reaching a lovely 70 degrees. My kind of weather for sure. With the drastic change in temperature from day to day we see a lot of…

The Whisper

Growing up I was not the best child. Actually, I was probably one of the worst. I was into everything I shouldn’t have been because I was rebelling due to my parents nasty divorce. And like any child going through something like that I just wanted attention. I wanted to be noticed. My best friend…

Patience is a virtue…one I seem to lack

  Every time I read it, the voice behind it is the lady from Steel Magnolias wearing the tight girdle that harps at Dolly Parton for eating cake. “Calories, Calories!” “Patience is a virtue, patience is a virtue.”  CRINGE!!   I have always been fast-paced.  I’m constantly going, going, going and never stopping.  I’m not a…

Amateurs built the Ark, professionals built the Titanic.

I saw this quote this morning on Instagram and it struck a chord with me.  What a powerful and true statement.  I can’t tell you how many times in my past, I had given up on dreams, goals, and new opportunities because I was scared. Fearful of failure and thinking I wasn’t good enough. Thinking…

A thief in the night

During my wait to get pregnant again and to have another precious baby, my faith in God has gotten stronger with each day, with each failed test, and with each month that starts over. I know that God has a plan for me.  I know that my wait is teaching me something.  I’m doing my…