The Ugly Truth

On my last blog, I shared the fact that I haven’t been writing much about this pregnancy because, well, it basically sucks.  But, many of you reached out to me and told me to share away and not feel the guilt I was feeling for complaining about something I am eternally grateful for.  So here…

There is No Room for Your Past in Your Future

  If you’ve read my last blog post Trust then you know I am finally on a new journey of hope with this rainbow baby.  Of course I’m praying for a healthy baby but most of all I’m praying to get through these first 12 weeks.  My first miscarriage I made it to 8 weeks,  second…

Trust

I’ve been seeing a lot of people on my Instagram (@iamlivinginfreedom) talk about their “word” for 2019.  I had never done this before so I thought I’d give it a go.  But, what word would I choose?  And how do I go about choosing it?  Is everyone choosing their word as something they want to…

Year of Freedom

Coming into 2018 I was pregnant with what was eventually my 3rd miscarriage.  What a way to start off the new year right?  But, I have to say that even though I began the year with another failed pregnancy, I was still hopeful. 2018 was my year for Freedom. Freedom from fears and anxieties that…

Stars Can Not Shine Without Darkness

A year ago today, I was pregnant with what would ultimately be my third miscarriage. I was scared, sad, and felt so alone.  “How could this be happening to me again”, I remember thinking.  I look back over this past year and can see the growth of the person God knew I could be.  Through…

What if God said he was too busy?

It’s pretty crazy how time flies by as we get older.  As a child the days, weeks, months leading up to Christmas seemed like forever.  Oh to go back to those days when time stood still.  Now, time can’t slow down fast enough.  Each day and week flies by with the blink of an eye. …

When God Shows Up

Yesterday was a bad day for me. I was dealing with a horrible hormonal headache from annolvuatory bleeding. I was feeling so low and hopeless. Feeling that another child would probably not be in my future. What if something happened during my D&C that has caused an eternal issue? What if I’m not ovulating and…

One of those days

It’s hard to want to write or basically do anything when you’re waking up with a headache every single day. Hormones….I hate you. Surge of estrogen they call it, yet it feels like a surge of little jack hammers going to town on my head. It’s hard to focus, work, be in a room with…

Getting through the storm

Arkansas weather is pretty crazy, unpredictable, and quite erratic at times. Monday it was cold and damp with an high of 38 degrees. Yesterday it was gorgeous and sunny reaching a lovely 70 degrees. My kind of weather for sure. With the drastic change in temperature from day to day we see a lot of…

Patience is a virtue…one I seem to lack

  Every time I read it, the voice behind it is the lady from Steel Magnolias wearing the tight girdle that harps at Dolly Parton for eating cake. “Calories, Calories!” “Patience is a virtue, patience is a virtue.”  CRINGE!!   I have always been fast-paced.  I’m constantly going, going, going and never stopping.  I’m not a…