Shield of Faith

Today seems like one of those days where I just want to fall apart.  I want to go in a room, alone, and just cry.  Just when everything seems to be going right something goes wrong. For a few weeks we’ve been on a high.  The high of finally getting through the first trimester.  Finally…

His Perfect Timing

My precious daughter.  She is about to turn four in a couple of months and I can’t believe how much she’s grown.  How much she’s learned.  How different our lives are because of this amazing little creature God blessed me with.  She has a kind and caring heart.  She’s a much better child than I…

Ready for Battle

Week 10.  Test week.  Since in the “baby making world” I’m considered old (cringe) for having a baby, there are a multitude of test and procedures that have to be done that didn’t when I had N almost four years ago.  I’m only 36.  But, having a baby after 35 is considered high risk.  And…

Thy Will Be Done

Morning sickness.  Week 6 hit me like a ton of bricks. In all 5 of my pregnancies, the sickness has been the worst this go round.  But, the past few days, it’s really lightened up a bit.  I’ve felt more like myself than I have in a couple weeks and I’ve been able to walk…

How Did Mary Manage Without Ginger Ale????

As week 6 rolls around the nausea has definitely reared it’s ugly head.  As with every other pregnancy (4) of mine I knew it was coming with a vengeance.  I’m a full time working mother, who’s husband is gone most evenings working since he is in school during the day.  When dealing with patients all…

There is No Room for Your Past in Your Future

  If you’ve read my last blog post Trust then you know I am finally on a new journey of hope with this rainbow baby.  Of course I’m praying for a healthy baby but most of all I’m praying to get through these first 12 weeks.  My first miscarriage I made it to 8 weeks,  second…

Trust

I’ve been seeing a lot of people on my Instagram (@iamlivinginfreedom) talk about their “word” for 2019.  I had never done this before so I thought I’d give it a go.  But, what word would I choose?  And how do I go about choosing it?  Is everyone choosing their word as something they want to…

Let God be the Judge

We live in a world that judges people on a constant basis.  People are judged by their appearance, their political party, their sexual orientation, the color of their skin.  Whether or not they vaccinate their children or support a brand because of their representative choice.  One of the main reasons I no longer get on…

When God Shows Up

Yesterday was a bad day for me. I was dealing with a horrible hormonal headache from annolvuatory bleeding. I was feeling so low and hopeless. Feeling that another child would probably not be in my future. What if something happened during my D&C that has caused an eternal issue? What if I’m not ovulating and…

Patience is a virtue…one I seem to lack

  Every time I read it, the voice behind it is the lady from Steel Magnolias wearing the tight girdle that harps at Dolly Parton for eating cake. “Calories, Calories!” “Patience is a virtue, patience is a virtue.”  CRINGE!!   I have always been fast-paced.  I’m constantly going, going, going and never stopping.  I’m not a…